Thanks all for this feedback. I am still holding on to this deeply hidden hope that he will wake up one day - and become the man he began to try to be. No 2x4s needed - I absolutely know that it is a crazy dream and I am not stuck or not moving forward with my life - it's just that I'm trying to rationalize that the further away he stays the less likely he is to ever come back. Pathetic - yes, I know. But I've at least verbalized it and maybe letting go of it will help make it go away for good!
On the good side - I took my first tennis lesson last night and I was the oldest, heaviest student there BUT I also was the BEST player! Yep - I loved it!!! Can't wait for my next lesson!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time