I need to completely detach. Seems impossible when I feel like I am thrown a bone to keep me quiet or give me hope and H disappears. I still hold onto hope. He says he wants to come home. Tells the kids he hopes to be home in a few months. Really. I never knew that. But, then he drives back to OW. I am venting. I am angry. Just let me go then if he truly doesn't want us. Why come and cry and be remorsful and tells us you love us. Fix things around the house. Then leave. Why?? Then I fail at DBing by iniating contact and then bringing up "whats the plan" "when will you see kids?" Someone. Please give me some 2x4's this neeed to stop. Is it false hope? THere has been NO action on his side Except he has iniated contact with kids on his own. THis is a first and it went well. Help. Such a hard day. I realize I have too many expectations.
