I think I'm minimizing the issues because I do not feel they are major. But you are right, the fact that I'm in this situation should be enough to make me realize that I cannot minimize them. They must be major to her, especially if they led to a PA or in the best case scenario an EA.
As for blocking out the thoughts... I'm trying to rationalize with myself that I need to "just do it".
A recurring theme in some of the meetings has been that she keeps saying she wants to the old me back... the person I was a few years ago. I'm definitely not as outwardly happy as I used to be and I think that is the hardest change I'm working on since internally, as you know, I'm a mess.
Btw, I really like that "happy people do not have affairs".
