@LIS thank you so much for your response. Your questions are some that I have been asking myself quite often lately. I think I do suspect a PA currently but have no proof, just a feeling. There is nothing concrete. I certainly won't snoop, if I learned one thing here already that is the one I've learned. If I snoop, I may find what I don't want to see. Will it help get me to where I want to be, absolutely not.
Have I forgiven him completely for A early on in our marriage, probably not totally. Unfortunately I think we fooled ourselves into thinking we had dealt with things when we really hadn't. I guess I have some additional work to do in that area.
Thank you for posting the list that you included. I have seen that a few times on here, and they really do make sense. I wish that I could print it out, but obviously can't put it up with H and kids in the house. I will just glance at it periodically.
So glad you found my post!! Your response is very thoughtful and I absolutely appreciate the prayers.
