Volume III

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That makes sense. The OM is a tattooed Army vet who supposedly was once a bounty hunter. Has the guns, the Harley, loves any sports team from NY (as does my W) and is probably fueling her MLC-I-don't-want-to-get-old desires.

And that is all somewhat ironic. I like motorcycles - even bought one earlier this year- and I've owned guns since I was 9. I sold them when I married W because I did not want them in the house with her autistic son there. I enjoy a good football or baseball game, but I'm not a rabid fan. I can remodel a house top to bottom, wire and plumb it and then furnish it to the nine's. I started to teach myself how to cook (my specialty is chicken whatisthisstuff...ask DG...) And I never missed the opportunity to tell her how talented, smart, funny and beautiful I thought she was.

I recently read a quote somewhere that some of the greatest failures occur when people are so close to success.

I have accepted the impending divorce and the fact that she is gone from my life. I have accepted my part in the problems we had. I have been working on my demons and my "nice guy" traits and slaying them one by one. I am starting to feel comfortable in my own skin.

It's a shame that my W chose dishonesty and infidelity over hard work and self-inspection. She will never know the person I am becoming.