What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

Apparently, you guys/girls are more adept at this than I am, so I will relent to the advise of my elders (or at least more seasoned veterans) and take the kick to my back side and do what I'm told. Everyone here has been great and the advice that has been given has been done in the best possible tone and with the greatest effort that one could ask for.

At some point in the near future, I will confront my W and give her the speech that Accuray suggest. Hopefully by doing so, she may have second thoughts and maybe I will be able to detach a little bit.

I haven't yet been able to forgive my W for what she has done to our family, to our M. However, I can already forgive my W for her A (does that make sense?), but I don't know if I can ever forget. Some of that may be lessened if she ever comes back, but I won't know until/if that ever happens.

I still find myself going through the daily motions when a brick hits me and the reality of my situation sets in. This happens many times a day and really hits me bad in the early evening and early in the morning (don't know why).

I've never envisioned a life without W and I still can't even though it is currently happening, but my head is clearer and I know what must be done. I just hope I have the strength to do.

I see that I'm coming up on 100 posts and from what I gather, that means I need to create a new topic, so look for part 2 of What do I do next? (coming to a theater near you).