Woke up feeling really good today. Laundry room is being organized now and I plan on using the crockpot for the first time today. Last night before I went to bed, I made H's lunch. Usually I'd tell him, but I just put it in the fridge where I knew that he'd see it. Yesterday I also sent him a friendly text telling him that I hoped he was having a good day at work. He responded about 2 minutes later.
I'm going over DB again and I'm still so confused. I've started my list of actionable goals but I'm really confused when it comes to pursuing. When I'm mad I avoid him at all costs. I'm not going to call or text today at all. When everything was peachy, we communicated all day long. I've got some activities lined up for the rest of the week and he's going to be very busy at work. If I keep reaching out, I think that I'll appear to be needy. However, if I don't show any interest at all he'll probably think that he's getting the cold shoulder.
I guess I am torn between flip flopping again myself. Its hard to be mysterious when he knows that I'm home with the kids all day long. I might start by taking the kids to the park, or even riding the bus with them to the library. I absolutely need to be out of the house some days so that he gets home and sees that things have been mixed up a bit. That's probably where I will start.
