What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

I guess I sometimes just wish that my W felt a little bit of what I feel everyday. That I have to feel this pain, this depression, this sadness, and fear of losing something that means the world to me. That this is something more than just our M and our supposed love for each other--that it is also about our kids. Just like love, this pain should also be shared and it would be nice to actually see the discomfort, the uncertainty in her expression to know that she still feels inside and that she still cares.