What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

But that's just it, I'm not angry at my W. Sure I'm disappointed, confused, and frustrated at her actions, but I'm not angry. When I see the look on my son's face as he tells me that his mom isn't acting like his mom and that she really doesn't do anything with him or his brother, it is heart breaking.

As far as her limitations, she doesn't have any--it's because her focus is on OM and her A instead of on her M, her H, and her kids like it is supposed to be. I understand that she doesn't care about me or our M, but to treat our kids like that is unacceptable.

Guilt is something she needs to feel and at times I think that she has, but I want to see that guilt in her eyes as I let her know that I know about the A. It may be self-serving or selfish of me to want that, but she has destroyed this family because she couldn't keep it in her pants and I want her to feel that guilt just as much as I feel the loss of my family and my W.