A fork in the road - EA admitted by wife

[NYCPeter]

I haven't retained a L yet - if we do go that route I would rather go through mediation and then have a L review and sign-off on the paperwork.

I'm going to add more gas to the fire - I know another backslide - god I hate myself.

Work situation is tenuous (and W knows this) - we're a small company and have lost a couple of major clients, in addition this whole sitch has not helped my focus at work.

So last night - I asked my W if she would consider holding off visiting the lawyer on the 15th until after the holidays.
1. So that I can focus on getting a new job
2. So that she can start looking to decide what she wants to do long-term re: work.
3. So that we can focus on the holidays and girl's birthdays (both in Dec) - in a state of peace without the additional stress.

She said "She can't do that - she wants to move forward with her life and that this would just delay everything". I said I understood that she wants to move forward and that she should do what she feels is best. End of conversation.

She gave me a peck on the lips before going to bed - I stayed up and watched football.