too much time and distance

[any chance?]

Update:

The pendulum is still swinging between slivers of hope and utter despair and loss. This is very much like watching a loved one die in front of your eyes. My IC told me yesterday that what I am going through is very different than a normal divorce, with many complicated and convoluted layers intertwined with Ws depression.

But I cannot do anything. The way back is smooth and paved, but she is so far over the horizon that she cannot and probably will not ever see that.

Moving forward with the D. Hope to have assets split by the end of the month. Will be an interesting process, to say the least.

Woke up at 4 this morning, realizing that I need to draw up a will. Massive feeling of emptiness and loneliness. Don't even know who to put on the document.

Moving forward, one tiny step at a time. Going to be a very long process.

Thanks for listening.