I keep screwing up. I try to keep dark and not talk about the r. I really blew it today. Talked to her about the r. She said she is happy and will be even more happier when she has her own place to spend more time with the kids. Funny thing is, she moved out. Told me she was done trying and doesn't want a relationship with anyone. She told me our discussions were always one sided with me, question her about expenses and she lost respect for me as a provider for our family. She makes a lot more money than me. I started a job as sub teacher a few years back and fell in love with it. I do other things to bring in money, but it must not be enough.
She told my d recently even if I make changes, she still will not go back with me. Who knows, only time will tell. This may fall under never believe anything they say, because when they are in this state, it doesn't matter who they are talking too, they are going to say whatever is coming from behind the wall they have built up.
I am slowly working on myself and making changes. I am currently working on my resume and will be trying to get a better job for me and hopefully for her down the road.
