So he's wearing his ring again as of yesterday. He's also FINALLY called a contractor to come out and start taking care of the various things wrong with the house. He also has been more active in the housework. He's really, really trying.
I went to my first IC appointment on Saturday. I did not want to be around him for a good hour afterwards, but I had to because we had things to do. I think I may just plan on going to work out immediately after IC on Saturday mornings to clear my head. He even asked after I was done if I was going to be able to be around him for the rest of the day. I said I would be fine.
But it was hard.
SIL got engaged this weekend. She immediately called H and asked if D could be a flower girl.
Um, she's not even 6 months old.....
I think I would rather shoot myself in the face than be involved in any aspect of her wedding. She's such a drama queen. She's already one of the most selfish people I've ever met, so make her a bride to be and she is sure to be hell on wheels.
H has been reticent to really reconnect with her, but for the first time this weekend when SIL extended an invitation to hang out, H actually said ok (I'd given him hell over the fact that he reconnected with his family, but really had no intent to see them ever). So H and I load up D, go to the designated restaurant we're supposed to meet her at, and while we're sitting there waiting for her to arrive, she cancels via text.
Not surprising.
This just made me furious. Why did H do this crap? Why did he bring them back into our lives? He doesn't like them, he doesn't really wish to be around them, he doesn't really care to have D know them. And I for sure do not want them around D. I think they have very few admirable qualities.
Luckily they have not asked what we are doing for Thanksgiving. I want no part of them.
He told me that he thought about telling SIL that if she wants to make any future plans to make them through me.
No thanks. I'd rather not.
H's family made planning our wedding hell. I honestly do not remember the months leading up to my wedding. When I took my certification test to be a T, the areas I did poorest on were from classes I took during that time period. I literally remember nothing. Planning our wedding was a tedious, painful process. The actual day was wonderful, but the time leading up to it was exhaustive and traumatic. The thought of seeing his family literally gave me panic attacks and I would throw up.
So by the end of the night last night, I was mad at H for ruining my pregnancy, mad at his family for ruining the fun of planning our wedding, and mad at SIL because I just hate her so much.
I was literally a bawling mess.
I feel like I gave my emotions an inch and they took a mile.
