What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

@Grace: I try to be strong around my kids, but the depression, sadness, and frustration set in and I am no longer strong. My oldest son sees this and gives me a hug and tells me that he loves me, but then comes the water works as I can no longer hold it in. Then my youngest comes to me and says "daddy crying, daddy hug" and while it melts my heart, I just can't seem to stop crying.

So when I say that I "don't get it right", what I mean is that I can't even be strong around my kids (who I love with all my heart), how in the world am I supposed to be strong around my W when she is the cause of me being this way.