What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

I hear what you are saying Accuray and I do understand, but I don't know how to do that. I don't know how to pretend to be happy when my life is in shambles. I don't know how to be fun to be around when I'm not having fun and I'm not fun to be around. I just don't know how and I wish I did. I try to do what I can around my kids, but I can't even do that right. Unfortunately, I wear my emotions on my sleeve. I do want my W back, not just for me, but for our kids too. I want my W to love me again and I know I can't make her. I just don't know how to do this.