Just journaling, my first night home was Friday night. It wasn't what I expected to say the least. I guess I didn't know what to expect. H went to the gym after work and came home around 8pm. Within an hour we were arguing. A lot of the items we argue about are little things, or from past issues. My main concern has been the distance I feel from him. He cares more about partying which is aggravating. It doesn't take much to disagree unfortunately. It continued through bedtime and he ended up on the couch for a few hours. He came back at 4am, the couch was uncomfortable.
Saturday morning, he apologized for the argument on Friday night. I apologized for my portion as well. I hate this feeling, I don't want to argue. This is awful.
So Saturday morning he asked me if we can go out that evening and try to start fresh. I was hesitant but it was a nice thought. I may have done the wrong thing but I went and we actually had a good night. We went to dinner and a sporting event. We have not fought since Friday night but I also feel like we are pushing a lot of things under the carpet.
My plan is to read more DR today and see if I can get some guidance.
I've been GAL. I recently started going back to the gym and hired a nutritionist. I have actually lost 23 pounds so far and feeling very good. I am excited to continue with that journey and doing for me is a good thing.
The weather is beautiful today. I have the day off due to some dental surgery this morning. I think I will take advantage of the gorgeous weather and take my dog to the dog park and do a few miles. Before long the weather will be colder and I won't be able to do it.
