Update, though not a whole lot is new to report...
NC with STBXW since we agreed on a date to meet the mediator / attorney. I have a Marital Asset Agreement and Quit Claim Deed almost completed; it's amazing what you can find online. Hopefully that legwork will keep the overall cost down, although I do plan to enforce my decision that STBXW will have to pay for this.
Life alone is getting a little easier to take. I still go to the gym regularly, practice & play with the Travellers, go out often with friends and even went bowling last night; first time in years. Trying to teach myself how to cook more varieties of meals.
STBXW and her OM are occupying less space in my head, but I still find myself hurting over that relationship. I think those will be the hardest thoughts to get rid of. I was going through boxes of pictures the other night and found several of her and me from much happier days; that brought on a pretty intense crying jag. I stored them away; maybe someday I will be able to look at them again, but right now they are painful triggers.
The last difficult task we have to face is dividing up the Christmas decorations. I think I will go through them, keep what I want and let STBXW keep whatever she wants from what is left. I will leave them for her on the enclosed porch so I don't have to see her or talk to her; emotions are still too raw right now.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
