Living in the trenches....Thread #5

[Navyguy]

Lying here in bed alone again. W has continued with the unpleasantries.

25...yes it makes sense. I really do understand what you mean when you say I need to make sure I can still forgive W. I realize I am being abused and that I do not deserve this...even if I had done something far worse, I probably still wouldnt deserve this. I have no idea how she justifies her actions in her head...i mean she took my kids from me for 3 months. How can she possibly think I deserved that?

I don't have my plan of action yet, but I am going to try to put something together this week. It is so hard...every time I think of something my mind thinks about our kids. I realize that them seeing this platonic marriage is probably not good for them, but i can't take an action I know will hurt them either.

Part of me wonders if shes just going to keep pushing until I get to my breaking point...then she won't be the bad guy.

Blah.