alcoholic H decided he wants D

[imthemom]

I dont know how im going to make it through this....how do you sit here knowing your husband is with OW and not go crazy?? Ive gone to bed so my son doesnt see me falling apart, but i am. I want to call him, but i know i cant, i want to tell him i love him..please dont do this to our family..but i cant.
I want my husband in my bed, not hers.
I miss him so bad...he will be here tomorrow morning to pick up S again..i dont think i can face him. Ive been crying all night, theres no way ill get any sleep. And the thought of watching him drive off again, ......
I just barely make it threw the week at work and now the weekend is over and its another week...and the holidays are here...i have no family in state..i have no one and he has her. I assume he will spend thanksgiving with her..what kind of woman does that????????
I have no idea who she is or were she came from but i hate her.
How do i except this and move on...this keeping hope is going to kill me..