alcoholic H decided he wants D

[imthemom]

the wedding was fun, very pretty bride and everyone had such a good time.
had to come home a little early to meet my son, he was with H while I was at wedding. H actually came in the house when he picked S up and I made sure I was looking cute, ready to go to the wedding. He didnt even notice but I felt better for it. S14 had an unbelievable day with his D. sent me a text: BEST DAY EVER!!..were goen mudden!! made my day and i was sure to forward it to H after he left from dropping him off.
Now im home and just so sad, the wedding was almost identical to ours and i cant stop thinking about him with her...he asked me to marry him 2 months after we met, hes been with her for longer then that and that terrifies me!!! yes, i know how irational that sounds....
I miss him so much and it just seems like he could care less about me, he is just being nice for our son...dont get me wrong, im soo happy he is makeing an effort in that area again. My S deserves it, but that doesnt make my hurt any less...the thought of him leaving here and just going off to be happy with her is killig me. I just keep wishing i could go back 6 months and change my actions and do things so different...and im never going to get that chance now.