A Bklyn tale

[BklynMom]

I was so nervous to see my H this afternoon - afraid I would blow it. But it actually went perfectly. He meet us at the playground to p/u our 2d and when he got there the girls were tackling and tickling me it was a very sweet moment. How could he not like that? He brought me a coffee (wow) then did a cheers with me. It was sweet. A few months ago if he did a cheers with me i would have said "Why the -- are you cheersing me when you want to divorce me!! This does not make sense..." Anyway not doing that kind of stuff today.

We pushed the girls on the swings together for a few minutes and chit chatted about his job. I was in my running clothes (which he always likes) he asked me about my running. It was a nice exchange and definitely warmer.

The little evil voice in my head says. This is what he wants, you guys are best friends and divorced look how great this can be. I try to tell the little evil voice to shut up!

It was amazing I always have such negative feeling building up inside before I see him. Prob. cause I am hurt and afraid of being hurt again. But when I see him I love him and want him back and miss him.

Thks for this board. Off the gal the night away!