new to this..

[learning2listen]

Well its Saturday, no word from H in a couple of days, i didnt respond to his last text and it is killing me to not contact him, but it seems to be the only thing that seems to get his attention.

I feel like there is a real chance but when I read some posts on here it seems like we are doing much of the same that some of you all have done, and in the end it seems d is what happens.

I had a thought yesterday that i am working on myself and my kids and focusing on what I CAn control and what is he doing? it seems a whole lot of nothing.

I feel pretty negative today, it seems he is satisfied with only talking to me once a week and having lunch..but its all he is giving to any of us..

I could sure use some advice. I am really trying to stay busy and not think about it but it still consumes most of my every thought.

if this is depression for him then this is it until he decides its not, and I am not sure if what I am doing will allow me to continue on this road. I truly love my h but I truly believe he has let us down. He doesnt want to come back to what it was, but he doesnt seem to realize I dont want that either.