Today I'm feeling depressed and dispar. Was thinking that my outburst with W in June and July was the perfect exit time for her. See, I noticed that after she bought the horse about 2 years ago she became distant. At that time I bought her a new SUV. Been in that car 3 xs. We have not done any activities as a family in 2 years. So I guess she checked out along time ago. I also now know how resentful I was at how she had been spending her time. Too bad I was not aware of my feelings when I got angry at her. At the time I got angry I didn't care what she would do. I did not want to live like that anymore. The only difference now is that we don't sleep in the same bed, no Ml and no touching other than that everything else is the same. No matter how much I DB she won't change her mind. Guess I got what I wanted. So why do I feel like crapp?
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
