Thanks, JB, isn't it nice to hear some good news once in a while? It gives me hope, and makes me feel GREAT that I may have had some teeny-tiny role in making her feel better about her sitch.
Big surprise yesterday after I posted. H calls and was just his usual cold self. I guess maybe I was feeling detached, because I just wasn't having it. He asked me if I thought he was out of line, and I politely said yes, I don't think I've given you any reason to treat me that way. And I told him I needed to go, I had stuff to do. He was clearly upset that I didn't want to talk. Told him I would call him when D went to bed.
A couple of hours later I get a text- 'got a sec?'. I call him, and he asks me to dinner. We had previously talked about getting together to talk, and he says maybe we can do that. I wasn't sure whether to be excited or scared, but I agreed to go.
Soooo , we go to dinner, and at first he's still stand-offish but we were having a nice time. I waited for him to say something and he finally asks me what I want to talk about. I just told him he seemed to have a lot of questions before for me, and we never have an opportunity to discuss them without interruptions.
It ended up being some more venting/validating talk. He did say (unsolicited from me) that he still loved me. And that he 'can't go back'. I told him I can't either, that I also do not want to go back to what we had. He also brought up the changes he has seen in me, but he doesn't trust that things will be different. I told him if that's what he believes then he is right, it won't be.
I don't agree, but right now that's his reality. I still think he's trying to convince himself, and now he's questioning his resolve. I hope so, anyway. I think I did pretty well not pushing or pursuing.
Kept thinking to myself, time + consistent change. Not enough time yet.
On another note, I think I did DB the mil a little yesterday. Emailed her and offered her a GC for a restaurant I had over in her area. She emailed me back and thanked me for it.
Got some GALing planned for later today, family day at church, then have some family coming over for the football game. Looking forward to it, hope everyone has a great day!
