A fork in the road - EA admitted by wife

[NYCPeter]

H - thanks for the cold water - you are right I am giddy.. but about what happened post revelation, that she wanted to be close to me. That's why I think tonight is so important - if she follows up.

I believe in my W's mind she was no longer in a R with me - so the EA was a R outside of ours. This is how she is justifying this to herself.

I only have one hope - after all the L visit is scheduled for the 15th. I believe she never thought I would accept it, so she's never forgiven herself. Now that a weight is off her shoulders and she sees I am willing to forgive then perhaps she will see there is a possibility of working on the M.

I may be delusional and it may only be a small hope - but it's the only straw i can grasp right now.

I recognize time and consistency are needed - I will continue to DB, GAL and do 180's where I can. I will not mention the EA nor the betrayal. I won't mention the L visit until the night before as I would want to know if it's going ahead so I can sort out my own legal representation.

I am hurt, but I will forgive - Why? Because I know the beautiful, caring, considerate person she can be. Because my girls deserve to be in a home with both their parents. Because I am to blame for 50% of this and I'm holding myself accountable.