Heard from H not too long ago. He's working overtime tonight in order to accommodate our counseling session tomorrow, so at least that is good. Have had a hard time concentrating on work, so I'm a little behind. At least I'll have time to get ahead of schedule this evening. Found a church for Sunday morning so that's all set.
Still really nervous about the counseling session. What am I supposed to say? Do I say what decisions I have already made, or do I leave things up to him, as always? The last time we went to counseling I was so standoffish. He always made things out to be less serious than they were. He only talked about the main OW instead of all of them. I just want us both to be honest. The kids noticed that he was gone this weekend. That really hurt.
H wants to go out after the counseling session considering that we will have some time off. Maybe it will be good for keeping resentment from building up, but I'm not sure if I'm going to be in the mood. Plus, its going to be a long drive back home.
I guess I'm afraid that the counselor will see things are hopeless after 5 minutes and focus on how we can split with as little damage to the kids as possible. No, I pretty much know this will happen. I'm going to have to start first and I'm going to say why we're there. I want to be in a trusting relationship based on mutual respect. He just wants to be happy. So what's the solution?
