Sometimes it's just knowing your self worth...I didn't really have a lot of self esteem in the beginning of this whole thing. When this kind of betrayal takes shape, it completely knocks you down!!
I know in my heart that I did everything in my power to try to save the M. I was able to walk away with my head held high knowing that there was nothing more I could do. I continue GALing for me and doing my 180's and it helps. I thank God everyday that I found this site. All of you wonderful people are so comforting and encouraging. Each one of you has helped me through some pretty dark times.
I knew in my heart that I had to let him go so that he could figure out for himself what it is that he really needs and wants. I knew that it wasn't going to happen with me and the family at home and on top of him. He had the good life: Me and the kids at home and OW outside of the home. He was getting the best of both worlds. Having his cake and eating it too. I am worth more then that. If in the end it is me and our family that he realizes he loves, needs and wants, well then praise GOD!! But if not, I can go forward with my life with no regrets on my end.
On an up note, I found out that H and OW had a pretty bad fight yesterday and he claims it's done...not sure I completely believe its done as he's ended it with her twice since this happened and ended up going back, but we'll see...I'm sure they'll apologize to each other, kiss and make up...but I'm not going to worry myself with that...the balls in his court now...
M:38, H:37, SS:17, D:12 ILYBINILWY: Aug. 2011 OW Discovered: Mid Aug. 2011 Piecing from Aug. - Oct.2011 I Moved out: Nov.2011 Moved back in piecing since: Nov. 5, 2011 H talking to OW again: May 15
