Good man! That's not the old NYCPeter whose posts I used to read. Either you've really embraced this or you know how to write about it now. My W also described her EA as insignificant, which it obviously was not.

You seem to be handling this much better than I did. One thing that happened to me is that I would get "triggered" by innocuous things that would make me think about OM and what had happened. At that point, I would get deeply depressed.

That's not entirely gone away, but the depressions are now much longer in between and don't last as long when they occur. My IC said that unfortunately, the intensity is the last thing to go, so although they are shorter they are just as intense.

It's also good that your W's EA was "on again off again", sounds like she wasn't entirely committed to it. My W was "fully in", telling OM "ILY" and pushing / pursuing for more.

Good job on your realizations NYCPeter, keep it up!

Accuray

Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced
M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12
Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11
Start Reconcile: 8/15/11
Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced)
In a New Relationship: 3/2015