alcoholic H decided he wants D

[imthemom]

Did some minor damage control last night...after doing some seriouse thinking on things...I get that I dont want to be the bitter shrew everytime we have to speak, thats not going to attract him to his family, but the idea that he gets to treat his family like this and I have to smile and say Have a nice day just really is hard for me to wrap my head around.
I understand my share in this and have owned it, at times more then others, but have yet to even see an incling of ownership on his part. that makes being susie sunshine very difficult.
Anyway, i also came to the realization that he is going to see her with or without a bed and really...if I have to look at that bed with the disgusting sheets on it one more time in my garage im going to do seriouse damage to something, so i sent him a message and said he could have the bed, maybe it will remind him of me ????...wow, i still cant wrap my head around it.....
so hows that for a 180...he has to be seriousely shocked..he knows me well enough to know how that is not what i would normally do, burn it in his front yard? yeah...but hand it over with a smile?? no way...
after that we were actually able to have a little back and forth about nothing really but just kind of teasing each other about work this morning by text. so I feel like Im back on track...no more calling his OW names and pushing him into her arms...she is not going to take him from me if I can help it...the only thing that I really cant fix is the fact that now that he doesnt really have much at the house, he is not home at night anymore, obviousley hanging at hers so that kind of bit me in the butt.
I hope he doesnt move in with her...that would be the end of me.