Had an emotional day today. W called me and asked me if I could watch the kids for her tonight because the pain pills they gave her make her drowsy and she didn't want to be out of it with the kids in the house. Plus, she has a job interview tomorrow morning and a dentist appointment tomorrow at 2. Which means I'll probably have the kids tomorrow night too....that makes me happy.
On the positive side, she called me rather than texting me. I guess that is progress. I don't know if it's from seeing her lately or if it the reality of her possibly not feeling the same way towards me as I do her is getting to me...but, I'm down.
I'm wondering if this ever gets easier. I know time heals, but if I'm still doing this a year from now will I still feel the pain that I feel now?
