Luv, It's extremely hard to take a negative situation and create positives out of it.. but part of DBing is doing exactly just that.
When we initially GAL - we hope our spouses notice... but more importantly, IMHO, GAL starts planting the seeds of positivity. Ones that will grow the more you do it.
Packing up your house to sell it.. Not really GALing.. more like creating a bunker for the next bomb. Does that make sense?
You say you look for hope, happiness, and excitement.. but in order to see that, you have to remove your blinders. The blinders of hurt and anger.
Those things ARE there.. but realize that it's up to YOU to see them.
It's all about perspective Luv. If you see the glass as half empty... that's what it shall be.
You are alive and you are healthy. You have a roof over your head, food on the table You have people on this message that care about you.. and you NEVER MET THEM!
See where I'm going?
Now that doesn't mean you have to be happy ALL the time, or that your are immune to the pain.. but the sooner that you realize that ONLY YOU can bring yourself out of it.. the sooner things will look brighter.
I couldn't see it either in the beginning.. so every night before I went to sleep.. I wrote a list of all the good things in my life. I did this religiously because my mind went to dark places often.
Over time.. my perspective changed. I still go to that dark place but it's far less frequent AND I'm there for a much shorter period of time.
Force yourself to find the positives in your life LUV. I promise you.. it helps if you let it!
((( )))
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
