What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

I get where you're getting at Grace, but I'm not that "outgoing guy". I realize that by being "that guy" would be a 180, I find that I would rather just do things around the house (while I still have it) like organizing, cleaning, packing things away, get rid of stuff, etc because it's gonna have to be done eventually anyway--I don't see a way of being able to keep the house by myself (especially if CS comes into play).

Now I would like to have some friends come over, but of the friends I do have, some have families of their own, one works all the time, another doesn't do anything, another is broke beyond broke, and yet another is just about worthless (yet still a friend). On top of that, most of my friends got D earlier in life and are still reeling with their own kids, CS, money issues, and the like.

I'm looking for hope, happiness, and excitement, but when I see my friends, I just don't see a lot of that--just the opposite.