When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

Jeff!!!!! Buddy!!!!! Miss you around here so much but so glad that things are going so great for you! If anyone I know deserves a great outcome from all this mess, it's you.

You are totally right. I'm letting my own issues cloud what he is doing for me. One part of my brain says he does this strictly from a place of love, not from any sense of obligation. The other part of brain panics and remembers all the hurtful things that he said when he left about me treating him like a piece of furniture and feeling taken advantage of. I know those cruel comments were only partially true but they still linger and I freak out when I think I'm not doing enough for him to feel loved and taken care of.

I made a point of telling him I was so grateful that he makes this every morning for me. It saves me a massive amount of time and allows me to sleep a few extra minutes.

As far as what I can do to make sure he feels loved, I clean, make dinner most every night, laundry, play carpool mom, and manage the household bills as best I can so that he doesn't feel that stress. He already works two jobs and is trying to get more. It's the very least I can do. There are numerous other ways I express my love for him but those are the most overt ways. I just hope it's enough. I don't ever want to go back to 'that place' again where we both felt so unwanted and it pushed him into the broom's arms.