Angel, hang in there. I am pretty new to this (discovered my husband's PA/EA in mid-September) and have been struggling to cope ever since. I feel like I need to learn some of the same things as you around being comfortable with giving up control and learning to have more fun/passion in life.
I'm encouraged by your story though...I hope I can get to the point where my husband will take trips with me again! (His last trip was to Las Vegas with the OW...) It sounds like you've made some progress and don't lose sight of that.
M 44, H 46 D11, D9, D5 Married 12 years PA confirmed 9/2011 I filed 3/2012 H moved out 7/2012