Just don't understand...

[tjb54]

Well it's been a pretty emotional day today. Both good and bad. We've got our court date tomorrow afternoon and am pretty sure the D will be finalized. Just hoping that she buys the 60 day move out stipulation. It's tough living together now, not looking forward to living together for a month or two being D. Gotta do what I gotta do though....

So, I thought I'd take a trip into Champaign and get me some new duds. Nothing suit fancy, but a nice casual fancy. I figure that since we started this journey with a Tux and a Wedding dress that I wasn't going out in jeans and a sweatshirt. I'm guessing that a Tux to a D hearing would be overkill though. Then I thought, heck at the beginning I was honored with a nice ring. So I headed over to the same Jewelry shop that I bought my W her 10 year anniv ring back in March and picked myself up a nice Bulov precisionist watch. I'm a momentos kind of guy. Down 23 pounds since this started, quit smoking on the 26 of this month and am looking ahead. Oh yeah, the 26th was my S birthday. Heading home I thought I should head over to Cathedral we were Wed in since it's in this town. Looking for closure I guess. So I get there and walk inside. WoW did the emotions really kick in! The place was totally empty and I took a seat up front. This is the first time I've been there since our Wedding. Stupid me didn't even think of bring a hanky or tissue. At least I was wearing a long sleeved shirt... My original thought for the visit was that I'd get it all out of my system before court tomorrow. I hope it works.

My W's father called while my W was out and we had a good half hour talk. Told him that I really enjoyed being part of the family. The feeling was mutual I gathered. When we were done talking I felt the urge to call my W's brother who lives a couple of hours away and basically say my goodbyes to him and his wife aswell. Good talk that I just felt I need to have. He did tell me one thing that was kind of a shocker. He said, "TJ, I'm surprised you lasted this long with my sister and mother up there. To be honest with you, that's why we're 2 hours away." Not sure why I'm throwing that in, just am.

W has not mentioned tomorrows court day at all today. Unsuccessfully trying to mind read I guess...

Wish me luck tomorrow, please.............!!