I am full of anxiety. I suddenly am asking myself: Is he ready? I know I am, but what happens if my H is not?
He says that his feelings for OW has waned. But he still talk to her. He says its just friendly talk.
He says he wants to stay in the M. But in our last talk, just 2 days ago, he definitely told me that for him, trying to be friends is still a lot of effort. He feels that I push it by demanding we communicate, just like I demanded for him to be affectionate earlier in our M (I just asked if we could set aside a half hour 2x a week to connect). I just read today that after retrouvaille, dialogue is needed. How will H take that?
I need prayers that somehow, he will be changed, his eyes will be opened by this weekend.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go
