What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

But then isn't knowing whether there is OM worth it then? I mean, if there is OM, then I know it isn't just me and that it is mostly her and that it is her looking for something different. Sure, I can change certain things about myself and I can make myself a better and more desirable person, but in the end, I can only do so much for myself and it is very unlikely that I could ever make myself that "something different". So what I'm asking then, isn't it worth it to know whether there is OM and that there isn't anything that I could have done to make anything better?