TM, JB is right.. You need to start GANLing the Sh!t out of your day, week, etc. right now.
Mediation is a tough process. It will be one that tests EVERYTHING you have worked on within yourself since the bomb.
How do you want to handle it?
For me, I had to work through some of the pain. I was too angry, too hurt, too shocked, too desperate for recon.. too everything.
But this board (especially JustStunned) suggested I slow down.
And I'm glad I did.. because I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready to show the best Val in this particular part of the journey.
And no matter what has happened.. I will not go back to the Old Val. I will keep my changes consistent. I will push to keep growing. The only difference is that.. I no longer be that person for w, or our m, I do it for me.
We want this to be over as fast as possible, we want to pain to subside and for healing to become.
The truth is that we can heal in our pain. In our pain, we grow. In our pain, we live.
I know it may be hard to see right now but this is not all for nothing. TM.. this is NOT a waste.
For if you have saved yourself, you have succeeded. If you act in a way that is proud, you have won.
and no event, person or relationship can take that away from you.
Hang in there sweetie! As someone posted earlier.. you will get through this.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
