25yearsmlc - thank you so much for your reply, wisdom and experience. I did make a number of responses in #2196364 in blue font. Please understand that I need to read your responses over and over. It's so insightful that I need the time to work on it all. I was responding to your posts by paragraph but in the end I was so exhausted emotionally I just need to let this all percolate into me. Many of my responses to you were with further questions and some of your points angered me and I just need to sit with this all and mull it over. I really do appreciate the 2*4. I want to break through this cloud and get on the correct path.
