I think that you writing that is very helpful. Please keep doing so.
Reality is one of the hardest things to see. Everything seems so surreal during this process. The death of the relationship, the hopes, the dreams... it's a lot to deal with and without reality it's even harder. For all concernced I'm sure.
The time warp. Did your H say anything about that? Just curious, because it seems that our walk aways/MLC'rs are "stuck" in that time trying to recapture something from a previous time. I'm not one of those that is going to have a returning spouse, but I totally relate to the other comments you made about thoughts and dreams and the kids and how it can be harder to detach, move on, and go away from.
Thanks for posting.
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."