Just got back from my little sister's college town where I stayed at her place. One of my old friends dropped by; he goes to the same college and lives in the area. (He was also one of my groomsmen in the wedding.) We all had a great time playing Wii Sports and Call of Duty: Black Ops on Zombie mode. My sister and I stayed up that night watching stand-up comedy (Kevin Hart and Patton Oswalt).

Me and her have really bonded in the wake of this. It helps to know that she, too, is struggling in the wake of her own sunk R, so she knows how everything feels. (However, I think that her moving away from that R will be so good for her. The guy she was with was SO beneath her, it's unreal.)

Last night, I bought a bunch of candy in the hopes that trick-or-treaters would stop by. I live in an apartment complex, so I figured that people would take their kids around door to door. Didn't get one trick-or-treater! Now I'm stuck with a big bowl full of candy calling to me throughout the day. I'm trying to limit myself to just a few at the end of the night.

I went to the credit union today and talked to a rep about getting my W off of my car loan and co-signing with my dad instead. I had told my W that I was planning on doing this after she began threatening to "take herself" off the loan in order to get back at me. However, after this meeting, I began to realize that such a process would be pointless. I found that I could actually re-finance the car on my own without my dad, but that would require sending my W paperwork and having her get it notarized, which would lead to a lot of unnecessary contact (as well as griping and power games) from her.

I've decided to just keep the loan the way it is. As long as I keep making the payments every month, there is nothing that she can do to threaten me through the car. The only time that I will have to deal with this will be when the car is paid in full and the title will need to be wrangled (she's still on it as she bought the car with me). Still, we agreed that we were each entitled to our own vehicles in the legal S, so the car is legally mine. We will see what happens.

First day of NaNoWriMo. I'm having a fun time making a sequel to the novel that I wrote last year. It takes place in a futuristic society that pokes fun at our current time in many ways. I was influenced by both the comic "Transmetropolitan" and the novel "Infinite Jest" (probably the best book I've ever read). It's a good break from the depressing stuff I usually write about.

For some reason, my depression has flared up recently. Thoughts about my W and her A are also killing me for some unknown reason. It could be that the shock is wearing off, leading to me feeling the painful effects, but it's hard to know. I'm doing my best to stay positive and keep my mind off of her.


Us: mid-20s
T: 5.5 yrs
M: 2 yrs
S + OM: 6/21/11
Legally S'd: 9/9/11

In this life, you have a limited amount of mental currency. You get what you pay for, so spend it wisely.

So it goes. --Kurt Vonnegut