Response from (W). I wish this moderation was a bit faster, it is taking over three days so far!
there was never any men in my life , like you with females ,and there will never be again, as long as i live, as for the house, i had to borrow the money to sart again from mum , luckily for her she could help as rr died, and i said i would pay every penny back some how, ive never had to borrow money before. you think it was easy to do what i did, i didnt take anything from the house except the single bed i had, thats alot to show for 7 years marraige, i walked away with nothing, it hasnt been a bed of roses for me,and i still dont know how im going to manage, but like before i lived with you , i paid my bills some how even if it ment not eating properly, , i lost all my friends and none of them were male, and even now they have stayed away, so as you can see, not only am i alone and lonely, this is the life i chose to live , because i could no longer bare to live with you telling me what i can and cant do, and i couldnt inpose on mums life and as much as i love her i couldnt stay in that small house. i know you have been trying to make changes , but my head keeps telling me 18 years of not having got what i wanted out of life ,i would never get them in the future, this marraige was never about what i wanted, it was always about you and you had the final say, i cant take the risk of going through anymore, my heart no longer rules my head anymore as i never had that love back and the respect i should of had as a wife, if you took your wedding vows that serious you would never of treat me the way you did, i did everything a wife could do for her husband and more, but you wanted to treat me as a lodger. and a lodger was what i felt .
Me: I do understand that you feel that way. and I agree that you have not had the atention and love that you should have, I am so sorry for being so blind. That's why I realise that you can't come home and you could never trust me again. The changes I have made are for my self respect and for my ability to survive whatever gets thrown at me in future. I never intended things to turn out like this and I bitterly regret being so insensitive. I can't turn back the clock or change what happened before, I can only be the man I want to be now and for tomorrow. It is a shame you will not be with me but it is more important to me that you are happy.
(W)
i have made my bed and now i lie in it, i will never want another man in my life again, you have made me feel like this, i have to live the life now of never having a family, and live the rest of my life knowing i was kidding my self this is what would happen with you, but its all to late now, im the one with the messed up head, i should of listened to my dad years ago and maybe just maybe my life would of been different, but i will never know that now, im now past it to start a family now, you took years of my life and i cant let you take anymore from me, i have had to come to terms with the fact i have lost so much of my life , and i resent you so much for it, im the one that will end up alone and on my own, because i dont no longer trust any man , what they say and do are to different things, you give your whole life to someone and they end up taking so much away from you, thats why i wont come back
