(W) glad to see things working out for you, sounds like your happy making new life and friends , especialy female ones
Me: Been talking to the dance studio. I can just show up at 20:30, all informal and they do a mix of different styles.
W: so ive come to the concusion im no longer needed in your life so will stay away that way you can get on with your new life
Me: What makes you think that? I am only making friends and doing things to be busy, I would rather spend my time with you, but you seem not to want to. Not the way I want it to be at all.I am giving you the respect of knowing that I am taking what you say seriously. I have told you how I feel, but keeping on about it is pressure on you which isn't good for you. I promised to take all the pressure off which is what you wanted, but you are all I want. But I have to respect your wishes, if you feel you can't come home, then I have to accept that, but even so, I still have to be the man I was, the one you fell in love with.If I could wave a magic wand, I would have you home tonight and I would show you what you have been missing.My love for you is unconditional, remember that.
(W): you always seem to be around females, and that has always been a problem to me, and now you have added a new one to your list, (X) didnt you say, , so ive decided to call it a day, that way i cant get hurt anymore, last night you told me your life is good , so good luck to you thats all i can say, least your life has turned out better than mine, i can only wish you every success for the future
Me: Well if that is what you want, OK. How about really telling me how you feel and be let me understand. I do not want ANYONE but you, I made my vows until death do we part. I have no intention of being untrue to you and love you exclusively.(X) is just someone to chat with, she isn't interested in men in any respect! Talk to me about how you really feel deep inside and let me do the same. Then if you want to be my wife again, we can go forward in love and happiness. I only need you to say you will try your best, nothing else.
(W): theres nothing to understand, you have your life and it seems to be now better than when we were together, this just told me i was more of a hindrance when we were together, your making up for it now im gone youve made that qiute plain to me
Me: I understand how you feel, just remember that I am and have always been ready to make everything right for us, my ambition is to make you happy, if you will let me Would you rather I stayed in and stayed the wreck I had made myself? I think that me becoming the person I ought to be shows my love for you. I would rather do things with you than on my own It would be better to talk about things in person I think. It matters very much to me and I still want to save our marriage, beyond all else.
(W): i have my misserable life on my own, and im sure one day i may be happy again , in the mean time ,im finding it hard to deal with life in general and my own emotions, and i cant bear to hear you going on about how life is better now i have gone, ,life goes on and you have every right to now enjoy it, but isnt it a shame it took me to leave you, before you realised that there is a life out there, look at it from my point of view ,you did nothing with me in all the seven years of marraige and now ive left, you are living it up, took you seven years to do it now, and find out, you have had 18 years of my life and ive got nothing to show for it, you have taken my lfe way, and taken all my dreams with it , i just hope you dont do it to the next woman in your life, because you have ruined mine, and nothing you can do now would bring that back
Me: I would like you to talk to me I know that there is nothing I can do about the past, but I can change what happens today and tomorrow It might seem that I am "living it up" but I am filling in my lonely times, that's all
(W): lets just leave it for the solicitors to sort out, time to move on
Me: Nothing else has changed, I still love you and want you exclusively.It hurts me to hear you in such pain and I want to reach out and soothe that for you.
At this, she went offline and I got a text message about returning things she has of mine sometime.
So now what? I thought this was supposed to be working out and now it is all in pieces again.
