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[mishka422]

Dang! There are days where I just want out of my head. Anyone have any idea how to do that?

The last couple of days I've been struggling with old patterns and working at not slipping into them.

Example - In the morning Gabe and I get up at the same time. Usually he ends up going to make sure Marc is up and getting dressed for school. He then goes in the kitchen and starts the coffee pot (he doesn't drink coffee, just me) and make breakfast for me and Marc. Mind you, I never asked him to do all of this, he just does. I appreciate it and make sure to always thank him for it but I feel like I'm taking advantage of him or something. The last two mornings I have made an effort to get up and out the room before he does to get Marc up and start the coffee. He still comes out and makes my breakfast though. Again, I don't ask him to but he gets to it before I do.

It seems to me he does it out of love but I'm just afraid it will turn to resentment from him at some point even though I never asked him to do it. He threw that nugget at me in the past and it scares me that it could be repeated.

What should I do? If I tell him he doesn't need to do this for me but I sincerely appreciate that he does do you think that would be enough?

This sounds like a pretty simple thing doesn't it? In my head it's not simple, it's torture. I rip myself apart agonizing over what I should say that won't make him angry with me.

If I can't even talk to him about this one simple thing, is it that surprising that I am completely frozen in fear to talk about anything more important? Like, oh, let's say the direction our R is taking?