alcoholic H decided he wants D

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He actually showed up for the session!!!... Unbelievable..i had no intention of bringing up OW and didnt have to. The councelor was talking to him about the fact he doesnt spend time with his son and H kept saying he didnt have a reason???????... The councelor finally said is there OW and he said yes...and shes not a OW, shes my girlfriend.
I was crushed and basically cried like an idiot the rest of the session..
He brought up the bed several times...what is that about??
S was so sad tonight when i got home, the boxs and stuff made him upset and he again thought i had gone to sign D papers..he didnt go with his friends..he stayed home and was sad and pissy.
I sent H an email about spending time with him, he really needed him now and he needed to put the bs aside and be his dad..he answered well im pissed that after 17 yrs of marriage all i have left is a couch.....?????!!!!!!.
ARE YOU KIDDING ME??????
I lost it, i know i shouldnt have but i replied.....it wasnt pretty..i said we shouldnt talk about this now because the only thing i have to say is after 17 yrs of marriage I CAUGHT YOU IN OUR BED WITH SOME SLUT..
Stupid...i wanna kick myself but to late now...
He doesnt even see what he has done....