The feelings you are experiencing are normal. This sh!t hurts.
People say not to give in to the hurt and anger and while this is true, we cannot simply ignore it either. We must acknowledge it and feel it.. because we cannot grow without it.
After two months of allowing myself to feel the pain, the lack of fairness, doubting that God was turning a sh!tty situation into an opportunity for growth, and ever other negative feeling.. a day FINALLY came when I wanted to move forward. To move past the pain and the hurt. To allow it to be there, but not allow it to control me anymore.
I don't know you are at a point where you just want to feel all the negative feelings.. If so, then know you're feelings are valid, your anger... justified, your disbelief.. understandable, your heartbreak..real.
This is just one more step of the process. One we must go through in order to get to the other side.
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
