I'm still here part III

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I appreciate everyone's genuine concern for me.
I know I wouldn't be able to get through any of this without the amazing people on this board. You have all been so helpful.

TG- I think you are right. Maybe this did happen for a reason.
If we hadn't separated, then I don't think I would have been nearly as motivated to make some changes in my life.
However, it also reminds me that I wasn't the W to my H that he deserved. No, it isn't all my fault, but a big reason why he left is.

As hard as it is to not beat myself up over this, I still do.
I pushed and pushed and look what I got?

On my drive home from work I broke down.
I'm so angry right now. I'm angry that after all of this, I am still here. And where is he?