Back home - but for how long?

[NYCPeter]

Yes - but it's been nearly 6 months without ML for me.

It's during the light-hearted moments that I wonder why we are in this sitch and know it can turn around.

I've been at home all day so I can help out with the "trick or treating" and as schools were closed due to the storm. W is back to being cold and distant - disapeared for most of the day, very little chat. It's her usual behavior when she is going out for a drink with her friends - I'm waiting for her to say so after the girls are in bed.

In the back of my mind is my W saying it's done and there is no chance of resurrecting the M. I keep asking myself why hasn't she filed. I know she's seen a L - I know she's talked to folks about financing the house. I'm not going to suggest she does but what is holding her back?

I know I should focus on me and the girls and let her go down the path she has chosen, but this is so destructive I feel I need to do something about it.