I've been working hard and with the help of friends and family my condo is turning into a welcoming home. It's so much easier to let go of stuff... both material and emotional. A faraway friend came by for a quick visit. We did a 2 minute tour of the place and went onto other nostalgic sites and she never said a single word about my new home.
The closest thing was mentioning that she'd always keep the big home to have room for family celebrations and grandchildren when they come to be. I thought, well, heck, that was my plan too until everything changed. It was the first time I felt the sting of the loss of status, not being good enough. Then I let it go. Which is a beautiful thing!
Growth comes without realizing it. I always swallowed my emotions. My mind would get twisted in all the feelings, how to react, how it might effect something else and I'd just shut down. Now it's so much better. The words will blurp out.. based on my understanding rather than defensiveness.
