What do I do next?

[luvhurts49]

Well, I did it. I went down and hired my lawyer. I had so many thoughts going through my head on the way there. Never would I have thought that I would ever need a D lawyer--I hate the thought of it now that it's already done. Best case scenario, we spend 10k and get back together. Worst case, we spend everything, lose the house, go bankrupt, and still get D and she probably gets custody and CS--not good for me. Ya know, I just realized, besides my house, car, and motorcycle, that (the retainer) is the most I've ever spent on anything. It's really sad when you think about it--your spending a lot of money in order to get rid of something you love and want to spend the rest of your life with.